I've taken some deep breaths. I know, you're so proud.
And I literally poured over your encouraging words. For real. They kinda made me think of this quote...
I love that. And oh is it true.
So I've been thinking. You know, after I confessed that motherhood was about to send me off the deep end - I tend to think a lot after publicly declaring my insanity.
I started thinking maybe its not just the kids. Maybe it's not just the housework. And maybe it's not just my endless to do list that's making things a little nutso.
Maybe a good portion is due to me not taking care of myself on the inside as much as I do on the outside (that outside part includes the house and children).
Isn't that just like us women? We are always quick to hit that class at the gym, on time for our hair appointments, and fast to fill our bags with "fulfillment" at a clearance sale at Kohl's.
(They do have some pretty good sales though, don't they? And their return policy?? UNBEATABLE.)
(Sorry. I'm passionate about good deals. Moving on.)
But finding time to spend with the Lord? Well, I've been a bit of a slacker here lately.
I fill my calendar with lots of things, yet I still struggle with fitting in my quiet time with the One who gave me all I have, and the One who can help this chaotic feeling I've got going on inside.
I am known to set my alarm for that morning run and my feet hit the floor right on time because heaven forbid I miss that "me time".
I'm quick to complain that I get no time to myself when I can't get out for that run, an appointment, or a relaxing stroll through Target. But I don't seem to talk about how I missed my quiet time and how that might be affecting the 'ol attitude. I don't know, sisters, I'm just convicted about it.
A friend reminded me recently that while it's good for us to take care of ourselves on the outside, it's most important to take care of ourselves on the inside. What is going on in my heart is what matters most.
I need to be setting my alarm to spend some time with Him before I set myself loose on the battlefield of motherhood.
Filling my heart with His promises is top priority. And you know what the bottom line is? My kiddos need a mom whose heart is full of Him. Because that is where my patience, love, hope, and grace will come from.
So that's what is on my heart right now. Not profound, but the truth :).
On a side note, we're off to the store today to get ready for Lincoln's 1st birthday party this weekend. I CAN'T believe it! And am I going over the top with our theme?? Um, absolutely! Pics to come!
Hope you have a great weekend!