It's a beautiful thing.
I got to thinking today at the pool as we sat on the side and ate blueberries, that it was this time last year that I found out I was having another miscarriage...
(I know...the goggles...they are fantastic)
A year ago today to be exact is when I shared that we had indeed ended up pregnant unexpectedly, and I was indeed losing that new life that we were so excited about.
I had 5 kids, I was blessed beyond measure, and I knew that the emotion that I should've been feeling the most was thankfulness for my girly brood...
but I was crushed.
Hurt because I knew there was nothing I could do, mad because I had to go through this when we had basically decided our crew was already the size we wanted, and confused as to why God was allowing it seeing as we had hit a comfortable season in our family.
But God doesn't do comfortable...God does change.
And that He did. I knew in my heart after that miscarriage that we weren't done adding to our family. Whether is was biological, foster, or adoption - we were meant to grow.
Even if it was a little uncomfortable...even if we didn't have a ton of money...even if our house wasn't gigantic...even if it didn't seem realistic...and even if bystanders were shrugging their shoulders and asking "why??".
It was His plan for us, and it was Him changing our plans - I am FOREVER thankful for that.
Less than a year later He gave us a sweet little man who literally has my heart completely. An itty bitty miracle that just snoozes away in the stroller at the pool while the rest of us play. A little guy that brought our crazy crew to a half dozen....a number I never dreamed I'd have...
The storms of life are never easy - they are usually rough, confusing, and full of change. But they are always for a purpose, and He always has a reason.
Today I'm thankful for His plan, His timing, His vision for our family, and His love and grace that covers us in the good times and bad.
Sometimes you just have to weather a storm before you get to the good stuff.
And that little, huggable, smiley, sweet smellin' good stuff, was more than worth it :).