Be Wholly Where You Are

That's another saying I've popped on the fridge.

It's where I want to be...

it's where I need to be.

I am doing too many things at a time...trying to be too many people at a time...and not really being great at any of those things as a result. Which is (sorta) fine, unless we're talking about being a mama to my my brood.

They are growing fast, and they are changing SO quickly. Just yesterday I watched Ella walk into school, that little pony tail just swinging away from side to side, and I  thought, "that almost 2nd grader used to be my almost 2yr old."

I hear myself saying, "hold on a sec...wait a minute...maybe later...go play downstairs...I'll play after I finish this" way to often lately. They need my time, my full attention.

I need to be wholly where I'm at...in my home...with my kiddos. It's where I belong. All the other busyness of life can wait.

I'm not chasing some big career, and I'm not looking for the next big thing - my next adventure starts when my 6 little alarms go off in the morning :).

I want to be wholly in the role that God has chosen for me.

I to often am folding laundry while listening to them practice spelling words, cleaning the kitchen while they sit at the table and color, and making to-do list after to-do list in my head while they grow like weeds.

Sometimes us moms have to do 100 things at a time, but I'm making it to much of a habit.

I'm going to try my best to give them my full attention instead of half, sit and read with them even if we're in the middle of the laundry room, and close my laptop even when I want to hang out in blog land.

(I often have a really hard time doing that last one)

But the truth is, blogging can wait, my google reader will still be there, my iphone won't abandon me if I don't answer that email, and facebook and twitter will move on even if they don't know that I'm standing in the check out lane at Target...or that Cinderella just got flushed down the toilet...or that an entire load of laundry is now blue due to an unfortunate encounter with a marker.

(although the Cinderella in the toilet situation was kinda worth sharing :))

I need to play playdoh when we're playing playdoh, play hide and seek when we're playing hide and seek, and tell funny stories when we're telling funny stories...

and really listen to them...

and be wholly there.

So tonight, I am going to take my favorite Ella on the planet shopping for a new dress and to get our nails done before her little birthday party on Saturday (her bday is on Sunday).

No checking my phone or going over the details of the busy weekend in my head, I just want to soak up all the sweetness of my 7yr old.

I'm going to be wholly there, wholly her mama - it's where I'm supposed to be. 

I can't wait :).

Hope you all have a great weekend!