I Wish I Had Better News

Well, some of you were on the right track - and I so appreciate your comments...

It's true.

Recently we received a huge surprise in the form of 2 pink lines. 2, bold, lines. I love 2 lines, don't you? There's nothing quite like a positive pregnancy test. No matter if you were planning it, or it came as a total surprise, it's just good.

Just. Plain. Good.

We were truly shocked...and overwhelmed, and excited, and nervous. You know, all the normal emotions. I started looking SO forward to telling the older girls about this new life we had growing in our family, I knew they were going to be ecstatic, especially my sweet Ella - she loves this big sister gig :).

But that all faded to worry when I started spotting last week. After a few visits and multiple blood tests, my Dr. called yesterday morning to tell us that the pregnancy was over - I was having a miscarriage.

I keep thinking I shouldn't be that upset - I do already have 5 kids, and this was unexpected anyway. I should just move on with ease, right??

It's funny, when I had my 1st miscarriage before I got pregnant with Ella, I thought that it was so hard because I didn't have any kids yet - that it would somehow be easier if I had already had a baby. But I don't feel that way anymore, this time hurt just as much as the 1st.

It just stinks.

It's such a relief to know that we have a Sovereign God who knows whats best for us, and knows exactly what we need at the perfect time. He knows every emotion that we feel, and is the only One who can really give us peace. He has been good to us, and we are truly thankful.

So that's the deal. That's where we are, that's what has been going on. A little curve ball, a small bump in the road.

I'm ok, just tired, and full of mixed emotions. But time will heal it, and life will get back to normal - well, back to our kind of normal :). My 5 beauties and I will be back at the pool and Target in no time! ;)

Thanks for listening, thanks for caring, and thanks for your sweet words. You all are SO great!