Wednesday, January 12, 2011

For Now, It's Just The 2 Of Us

It's quiet, the girls are downstairs playing, and I'm enjoying the fact that we have a snow day.

Baby boy is moving, I can feel him doing little somersaults, and in this moment...

Nothing else matters.

Not the housework, not the stress of everyday life, not even the medical bills that are literally piling up.

All that matters right now is that God is showing me what it truly means to be blessed, and that every season comes and goes for a reason. His plans are always on purpose, for His purpose.

I popped my old beat up jeans on this morning, strapped my belly band on with my new little maternity shirt, and smiled at this baby bump that God is growing.

I feel like I'm carrying around His grace in my belly.

I don't deserve it, yet He still gives in abundance, He still provides everything we NEED, not everything we WANT. I'm starting to think that is one of our greatest blessings.

With every movement I'm overwhelmed by the gift of this little boy, our only son, our last biological child. He rests with me, he cooks with me, he plays with the girls with me, he eats poptarts with me, and he sits with me if I need to cry after a draining day.

Draining in a good way :)...


It's just me and him for this short time before I have to share him with everyone. I'm the only one he knows, the only one he counts on, and the only one who can provide for him. To know that God has chosen me to do that, well, it overwhelms me.

Just like I am always with him, God is always with us - and just like I provide for him, God provides for us. I'm so thankful to be reminded of that - and I'm almost embarrassed that I needed to be reminded of that.

Even in the stressful midst of this semi-controlled chaos, God reminds me that we are still on plan A, there is no plan B. Just one perfect plan - one perfect agenda for our family.

This sweet little guy is already a blessing in so many ways, he is already teaching me.

And all this time I thought God was going to use me to teach them. :)

20 comments:

Marva said...

Amen! Couldn't agree more! It's amazing what our children teach us on a daily basis! God has the perfect plan and is SURPRISES by NOTHING! Have a blessed day!

Jennifer said...

Great post! I really need to learn to savor the moment with my little one all to myself, but I must admit I'm getting cranky and impatient. I needed to read this post and put things in perspective:)

Laura said...

such a beautiful reminder!

Katy at Big Girl Panties said...

Thank you so much for posting this! I really needed a reminder today that I am most definitely not in control :)

Double the Giggles said...

Beautifully put.

becky said...

So glad that you are able step back from the stressors of everyday life and just enjoy moments with your baby boy. I can't wait to meet that little man--hurry up, April!!

Oh, and that pic of Kinley is just precious! That girl sure knows how to work it for the camera! :)

Marinewife1111 said...

Thanks so much for the reminder Kate!

Its so wonderful to hear you talk about your "bonding" with your baby BOY!

jenny said...

Really beautiful post, Kate. That little boy is blessed to have you for his mama (as are the girls). Love how God uses the "unseen" to grow our faith! Enjoy those sweet kicks and movements from your little guy!

wonderchris said...

A truly beautiful post!!!

Marisa said...

Oh, how I love this! It is still so fresh in my mind. The miracle of new life moving inside...and all the goodness of God!

Trish said...

made me cry....one of the sweetest blogs I've ever read! Thank you, Kate!!

Joan said...

Amen to that! And I can't agree with you more. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with the amount of stuff that needs to be done, feeling bad because I rather play with the kiddos, one of my goals this year is to do just that. Stop caring there are dishes to be done, or toilets to be cleaned ( they will get done when they get done ) but enjoy the gifts that the lord gave me and appreciate the time with them more.. It's time to joy the more simple and important things in life =)

Jennifer said...

That was beautiful! Thanks for sharing!

Future Mama said...

Touching :-)

Much love,
Future Mama
http://expectingablessing.blogspot.com/

Sarah Halstead said...

I love this! You are so sweet. What a great post.

Lenae said...

Beautiful! And this: "I feel like I'm carrying around His grace in my belly." -Best line I've read all day.

The Sneaky Mommy said...

So perfectly put! Boundless grace, so undeserved! Babies do have a way of helping us see that grace more and cause us to be humbled in gratefulness that we are apart of something much bigger than ourselves!

Asia said...

This is a Great post!!! I was excited for you amd smiling as I read this post...It is a blessing!!!

Sarah said...

beautiful thoughts, Kate. thank you for sharing!

Kate @ Bliss and That said...

Love, love, love... :) Just perfect, you and him, where you are right now.