That has been my day for the past 10 days. Up early in the morning, packing bags for the day, making sure the house is clean before we leave, swim team, swim suits, sunscreen, feeding babies, lunch, park, the list goes on...and is usually a list I enjoy. For the most part, I am very calm even in the middle of fits and meltdowns. Not because I have a lot of patience necessarily, but because I feel there is no benefit to me and the children melting down. I truly believe when the mom starts to let loose, it sets the whole situation on fire.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
As a mom, have you ever had a day when you thought,
"If it was possible, I would be fired...or maybe I need to retire..."
I decided to throw a little honesty in my wordless Wednesday, and it will be far from wordless. Because I am a mom, I am human, and I do make mistakes in this amazing, beautiful, but wild hand that God has dealt us.
It can be rough at times. And let's face it, when you are a stay at home mom, there are no lunch breaks, no half days, no vacation time, and no consistent adult interaction. It can feel isolating and lonely, especially when you have many small children that are pulling your hair out for you :).
Stressed out, maxed out, checked out.
I'm on fire.
Lately I am a little on edge, and when I say "a little", I mean "a lot." I've been short with the girls, and stressed. Our days start out just like normal, but 3 hours later I find myself yelling at them in a bathroom somewhere...as they stare at their frazzled mother, confused as to why I am at the end of my rope.
I should be fired.
It takes a lot to raise these kiddos, and I wouldn't trade one second of it for anything. There is no amount of money that would take me from being with my girls day in, and day out. Nothing that would ever replace seeing all their firsts with my own eyes, and being there every time they need something. They need their mom. I would do it all again, and if the truth be told, if we felt led to, I would have more.
So today I've decided that I'm going to try to take my humor back...I am going to laugh with them instead of be stressed, I'm going to delight in these crazy moments that will soon be gone when they are older. I'll let you know how it goes. Anyone out there want to offer some advice on how you deal with stress during crazy seasons? Please tell me that every mom feels this way sometimes!?
Maybe I shouldn't be fired, maybe I just need some PTO time :).
These are the pics I had planned for a wordless Wednesday post. I know I've said it before, but don't you just want to squeeze them!?