I worry, I get anxious, and I can let fear of the unknown consume my mind from time to time.
It's kinda funny, actually. Because for the most part, I'm a pretty laid back, go with the flow kind of gal.
Unless you're interrupting the flow of my sleep, then I'm more of a breathing fire kind of gal.
But the big things, the situations that are basically out of my control, those things that I can't change, the giant decisions we have to make, the leaps of faith we're called to - that is what I worry about, even though I am fully aware that we serve a God who tells us not to worry.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34
Making the life changing choices are always the ones that linger the most, even when you can see the hand of God so clearly. It's that decision to go back to work, to homeschool or public school, to go against what society believes to be normal, to add more kids, to not add more kids, or making those hard parenting decisions.
It's us facing a much more messed up county and system than we expected in our foster to adopt journey. And it's also us choosing to show compassion and grace to birth parents who are making really bad choices.
But when you feel something in your core that is so strong that you can't help but follow it, nothing else matters. I read somewhere one time that you are the strongest when you are the most afraid and press on anyway.
Don't let a bad seed grow.
The world in general will plant seeds of doubt and worry and fear. Especially when you are going against the grain or the strong opinions of people you may love and trust. I hung this on our fridge a couple weeks back after reading it during a devotion because I love the reminder...
It applies to so many situations in life, and it reminds me to pray for His strength and peace and certainty.
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33
He knows us better than anyone, and that's why it's important to follow His lead. Just keep turning the pages of the story He has written for you.
Turn the page, embrace the next chapter He's calling you to.
He doesn't want us to be fearful, He wants us to move forward with confidence, and embrace the desires and the passions that He has put on our hearts.
The passion we feel about the decision we made this past year has changed who we are - and passion trumps worry and fear and concern and the thoughts of what others will think.
Push Aside - the worry, the fear, the doubt.
Love that we are able to do that through Him.